|| complainer ||
so you know how i would always complain like i would always have something new and i was just the negative nelly of the crowd...well i'm not that way anymore because looking back its good i didn't get everything it wanted!
For one thing..cheer i wanted cheer more than life itself i worked hard i went to cheer everyweek and tryouts came around and i learned the cheer and thought i did amazing. apparently i wasn't good enough for them when i was a freshman so i complained and cried and hated on the cheerleaders and bashed and was the biggest brat ever!
then sophomore year rolled around and i tried out again. i stayed up late, i watched it in class, the cheer song was the only song i played on my ipod for two days until judge tryouts. at judge try outs i remember perfectly my group said they would practice a few minutes before they went in with me but they never came. then all of a sudden 57 was called..that was my number. i didn't know what to do so i went in there. and i spaced on the dance... then came time for stunting the group i started with didn't work out so i had to go with a bunch of people i didn't even know. i could do a lib in the first group i went with but they only had me do elevator with the new group. and the flyer hadn't really flown before and she nailed me in the face. i came out of the tryout BAWLING..i cried for so long and everyone said it was okay and i did good. no i didn't i screwed up big time. my mom just held me for the longest time. then i was walking around the corner and the lax team came in because it was raining so all of the boys got to see me cry and i wasn't too happy about that but Jake Hatfield came up and gave me a hug and was the sweetest kid ever! made me feel better but that night i couldn't stop crying cause i knew it messed up big time.
so all weekend long i practiced the cheer over and over and over and over all weekend! then the assembly came around. (the one that is tomorrow) and i was scared to do tumbling on the auditorium stage floor because that's where shelby got hurt just the year before. so i didn't i think the assembly's were okay i did my best and it was fun.. i loved the rush of preforming on stage with the alta cheer uniform on. i was in heaven.. inauguration night rolls around and they called the first girl the second then the third and then the last. it wasn't me. i bawled again. but i could still make JV. i didn't. i complained i cried i bashed the cheerleaders. and was a total snot!
but looking back at it now i am glad i didn't make cheer because i don't think i would have become such good friends with sarah, candace and anna i wouldn't have had any of that. and the cheerleaders i don't really fit in with them. so i am totally okay with not being on the team..as much as i wanted that uniform and being able to cheer at the football games this year my senior year i couldn't do it because cheer doesn't trump religion. the varsity team competes on sunday and it didn't interest me anymore. even though this has been my dream since as long as i can remember it wasn't worth it to me and i'm glad. just like next year around this time i'll be grateful that i didn't make SBO.
that old me that complained, thought i was better than and bashed on the cheerleaders is no longer me. because some of the cheerleaders are girls i look up to like Jess Sullivan, Kylie T, Jessica Smith and so many more. those girls are the sweetest and i'm truly sorry for talking rude about you guys. you are amazing and i'm glad you are the team! :) you deserve it and have done amazing!
everything happens for a reason..
and sorry no spiritual sunday post today because i have had so much going on but i will tell you that josh mciff is going to Lima, Peru and i am a Ma on trek this summer with josh mathberry as the Pa! i am so excited!! and thankful for the gospel..look for the S.S. post tomorrow! :)
xoxo jordyn standage
For one thing..cheer i wanted cheer more than life itself i worked hard i went to cheer everyweek and tryouts came around and i learned the cheer and thought i did amazing. apparently i wasn't good enough for them when i was a freshman so i complained and cried and hated on the cheerleaders and bashed and was the biggest brat ever!
then sophomore year rolled around and i tried out again. i stayed up late, i watched it in class, the cheer song was the only song i played on my ipod for two days until judge tryouts. at judge try outs i remember perfectly my group said they would practice a few minutes before they went in with me but they never came. then all of a sudden 57 was called..that was my number. i didn't know what to do so i went in there. and i spaced on the dance... then came time for stunting the group i started with didn't work out so i had to go with a bunch of people i didn't even know. i could do a lib in the first group i went with but they only had me do elevator with the new group. and the flyer hadn't really flown before and she nailed me in the face. i came out of the tryout BAWLING..i cried for so long and everyone said it was okay and i did good. no i didn't i screwed up big time. my mom just held me for the longest time. then i was walking around the corner and the lax team came in because it was raining so all of the boys got to see me cry and i wasn't too happy about that but Jake Hatfield came up and gave me a hug and was the sweetest kid ever! made me feel better but that night i couldn't stop crying cause i knew it messed up big time.
so all weekend long i practiced the cheer over and over and over and over all weekend! then the assembly came around. (the one that is tomorrow) and i was scared to do tumbling on the auditorium stage floor because that's where shelby got hurt just the year before. so i didn't i think the assembly's were okay i did my best and it was fun.. i loved the rush of preforming on stage with the alta cheer uniform on. i was in heaven.. inauguration night rolls around and they called the first girl the second then the third and then the last. it wasn't me. i bawled again. but i could still make JV. i didn't. i complained i cried i bashed the cheerleaders. and was a total snot!
but looking back at it now i am glad i didn't make cheer because i don't think i would have become such good friends with sarah, candace and anna i wouldn't have had any of that. and the cheerleaders i don't really fit in with them. so i am totally okay with not being on the team..as much as i wanted that uniform and being able to cheer at the football games this year my senior year i couldn't do it because cheer doesn't trump religion. the varsity team competes on sunday and it didn't interest me anymore. even though this has been my dream since as long as i can remember it wasn't worth it to me and i'm glad. just like next year around this time i'll be grateful that i didn't make SBO.
that old me that complained, thought i was better than and bashed on the cheerleaders is no longer me. because some of the cheerleaders are girls i look up to like Jess Sullivan, Kylie T, Jessica Smith and so many more. those girls are the sweetest and i'm truly sorry for talking rude about you guys. you are amazing and i'm glad you are the team! :) you deserve it and have done amazing!
everything happens for a reason..
and sorry no spiritual sunday post today because i have had so much going on but i will tell you that josh mciff is going to Lima, Peru and i am a Ma on trek this summer with josh mathberry as the Pa! i am so excited!! and thankful for the gospel..look for the S.S. post tomorrow! :)
xoxo jordyn standage
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