F R U S T R A T I O N

i'm just gonna let out a little frustration here

so i have really only ever been friends with guys

girls are too girly and too much drama

so i avoid them

(except a few you know who you are)

but this semester I have made so many friends

like seven or so different friend groups

because i like having options

(that sounds rude but sometimes some friends just do lame stuff okay?)

but i made friends with all these guys in particular

just being one of the bros

going on adventures 

having fun

living the college life

then..

i introduce them to my friends

and somehow drama

A L W A Y S

has to happen. 

ALWAYS....

and then they stop coming over 

because it's awkward. 

can i just say i hate that. 

i don't make things awkward with people.

i love having so many friends. 

but they are diminishing

because there has to be something 

that comes up

and makes the friendship awkward with them 

which SUCKS.

why do people have to make situations weird?

you liked each other? now you don't 

great be friends

you went on a date? nothing happened after that?

great be friends

you cuddled with someone? now you don't

great be friends

you kissed someone? nothing happened?

great be friends.

you dated? then broke up.

great be friends. 

like honestly i don't get those people who have to choose

you either date or you're nothing.

you don't like each other after a date you can't hang out. 

you had a bad time on a date now you can't be friends.

like i honestly haven't ever understood that.

but it is taking a toll on my friendships

it's killing me.

if you are reading this and haven't come over

in a while because of something stupid

(or you haven't come over in a while in general)

PLEASE COME HANG OUT WITH ME.

I wanna go on adventures with friends still.

i wanna play poker.

i wanna drive to manti temple

i want to have movie marathons

i wanna go hot tubbing

i wanna play volleyball

i wanna have a fun last year at snow.

and i wanna do it with all my friends

 CALL ME UP PLEASE!

i love all my friends

and even if things are awkward with you and one of my friends

come over, 

you can hang out with me still!!

xoxo jordie.