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wanna know what's new?

I go to work, class, nap, work, class, study, sleep.

which isn't too bad cause i don't get invited to hang out.

its starting to get to me. 

it was just like high school.

i had friends, but if i didn't invite myself i wasn't there.

thats how college is starting to feel.

i love my friends. 

but i don't always feel welcome.

so instead i just chill at home 

sleeping or netflix. 

i just wish my best friend was home.

i have 239 days left until hes home.

that moment is going to be the greatest moment of my life. 

i can't wait to see him

start crying

give him the longest hug of my life

and never let him out of my sight 

(until he has to go home)

I can't wait to lay my head on his chest

listen to his heart beat and 

just be close to him again. 

i haven't been able to open up to anyone else

 like i have been able to open up to him.

besides madeline. 

madeline is an angel! 

if i didn't have her i really honestly don't know how i would even survive college!

sorry to rant about my missionary, i know people (guys) hate that. 

but i don't get asked on dates so it doesn't make a difference right. 

but there you go my speel about how much i want november 6th to be here!

thats it.

sorry. 

boring 

i know

xoxo jordie